I am (20f) and I broke up with my boyfriend of 2 years (22) almost a month ago because he has spent more than a year of his life just playing video games and smoking weed. Because of this and his absolute zero desire to advance himself in life/career/education, I lost a lot of respect for him as a man which made me not want to work on issues that we had in our relationship, therefore small problems became big problems. I lost that spark for him and I just felt we were too incompatible and various aspects of our life which made me feel apathetic toward him. We had a lot of love for each other, but we just always had really high highs and really low lows that made our relationship feel like a lot of work instead of fun and joyful. I cut it off with him however even weeks after I feel so much pain, and loss. I don't know if I just miss having someone who wanted to be with me and companionship or if I really miss him. I wish all the things I wanted him to change could just happen and this hurts so so bad. How do I stop feeling this way, he's on my mind all the time now, more than he ever was in the weeks leading up to the breakup.
How Do I Stop Feeling This Pain even Though I Am The One That Broke Up With Him?
