Is it bad that I can’t handle my rich cousin?

My cousin is rich, handsome, he always got everything handled to him, we are both 19, but when we graduated he was sent to a private university in Europe, while I’m studying in a public one, and having a part-time job to support my self.

I don’t hate him, but I just hate to see how lucky he is, and how my parents praise him while he did nothing but being born with richer parents who care about their child’s education. They compare me to him constantly, while we weren’t given the same opportunity, and it’s driving me mad at the point that I wish he would be dead! I feel so bad but knowing that we will spend a holiday together makes me so mad that I want to break anything! What should I do to manage my anger against this shitty cruel world? I must add that he was born with blue eyes and a great smile, while I look like Shrek!
Is it bad that I can’t handle my rich cousin?
Is it bad that I can’t handle my rich cousin?
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