I was abused since a kid so I learned that the best defense was to camoflage and never reveal anything about myself and just blend into the background by not talking. I was mute around one of my parents... Who was the scariest to me.
I think I need to start communicating. I didn't realize I must come across as stuck up because I never want to share myself with others. Because I am so shy. I realized now after talking to someone on here that part of a beneficial life is communication. I really had a mindset wherein communication was seen as bad/dangerous.