I think my best friend kissed me lastnight, but I'm not for sure?

[Anonymous]

So my best friend and I we tend to drink, smoke and listen to songs with our other friends, but this time I decided to stay the night because I went over my limit in drinking so he let me sleep in his bed and he slept on the couch. Now the only reason I did this because I felt safe around him, especially knowing I'm not his type, ( he loves Hispanic girls ) so even though I was wasted and passing out finally being able to fall asleep, I was also still awake being aware of everything. So I was going through a crazy dream and honestly for some reason it came in mind that something felt real, it was like I literally felt being kissed on lips like a quick peck on the lips. I mean like I don't want to assume because I knew he was still awake when I finally passed out but maybe it was all just a dream and it was possible it felt real.

[OlderAndWiser]

Do you have any romantic interest in this guy?

[Asker]

Yes I do, but I know how to let my feelings go once I know I don't have a chance. Even though he throws at me so many mixed feelings I don't let it get to me because I would rather just be best friends than losing what we have which we both agreed is truly special, than us not talking and being awkward around each other.

[OlderAndWiser]

And what if his destiny is to be the love of your life?

[Asker]

I never really thought about it honestly

[OlderAndWiser]

"You've gotta take a chance if you wanna find romance!" -- OlderAndWiser

[Mrstewart42]

Just keep it as friends because if you two break up you will lose a good friend

[Asker]

I really want to be friends. It just confused me if he actually did kiss me, I'm really hoping I was just dreaming, it just felt so real, like even the next day I still felt, like when I had my first kiss, I still felt it the next day. I didn't ask though because 1 we were both drunk, he doesn't really remember everything when he gets wasted and 2 I don't want any confusion between our friendship