My baby is 6 weeks old, and I have not been able to bond with her or feel any kind of attachment. I went through my pregnancy alone and when i gave birth I had a somewhat traumatic birth where I needed medical assistance, and despite everyone saying how important it is to have skin-to-skin contact with your baby after it is born, in a way I was robbed of this. When the doctors placed my baby on my chest after they delivered her, not even 5 minutes later, they took her off me to weigh her. My sister also jumped in and cut the umbilical cord on me when I wanted to do this. Then both of my sisters took her to hold, and when they gave me my baby, two midwives walked into the room, and they also took my baby from me to give me a sponge bath. In the days following the birth, I told my family I didn't want any visitors as I wanted that time to bond with my baby, especially since I knew once I went home I wouldn't be left alone, but neither of my sisters respected my wishes. They instead showed up at the hospital; one of them in particular kept coming every day and gave me no privacy when I was trying to breastfeed or when i just wanted alone time.
Everything that happened played a part in my not being able to bond with my baby, and I don't know how to find that bond with my baby since crucial roles to help a mother bond with their babies were taken from me and I can't help but feel like my baby also feels disconnected from me as well, as she cries if I give her kisses, I sit there talking to her for hours and she either turns her head and looks the other way or she stares at me like who the heck are you. Other babies the same age as my baby all seem to try and talk and respond to their mothers but my baby doesn't even try and talk or does she even respond. It's almost like she sees me as a stranger to her.
