In the past, I have had eating disorders but have not done any ed related behaviors for over a year and a half. I am still usually insecure about my body and looks in general, though (I’m ugly).
I got a gym membership and have been going regularly for the past couple of months. My body looks a little different from the strength training I’ve been doing, especially in my arms. They’ve gotten bigger from working them out. Although that’s logically a good sign of progress, every time I look and see that my arms are big, I feel embarrassed and makes me feel like I’m fatter. There are some differences in other parts of my body, too, like my legs are muscular. But my other problem is that I’m constantly looking at my stomach and sides and I have a big appetite so I’m not losing any weight. I have a healthy bmi but my lower belly area has a pooch and my waist isn’t very slim looking. So I just don’t feel good about myself
I don’t know if any advice can help me or if I just need vent.
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It's just like how "once men get to the steroid user level, they're only impressing guys at that point." Isn't it true that women don't care and even prefer us to look strong but not excessively huge like a steroid abuser? So you know that men see a wide range of bodies as "hot", I don't think we have a "type". A fit healthy guy will see that you're putting in the work and even if there is something ugly about you, judging by your effort, you will look hot in no time. So he will give you chance. And if you're sad about not being perfect right now, then you're probably trying to impress other girls who would judge you.
I mean big can be good, it just all depends how it looks tbh
You're insecure about gaining muscle?
Yes lol
It makes me feel fat because I’m not skinny