But I seem to be pretty alone in all of that and makes me wonder if I'm stupid for craving all of these things. I mean I knew for years I wasn't ready and now that I feel like I am. I feel like I won't date a guy or find a guy until I'm in my mid 40s. And I've recently made a friend in her 50s whose never settled down and to me that feels like the worst thing ever like the most devastating thing ever imagining myself at 50 and still being single and just makes me feel like, hopeless and maybe I shouldn't prioritize love so much.
What do y'all think?