Complicated relationship?

Anonymous
Has anyone been in a complicated relationship, we have been on and off for 5 years, known eachother 10 plus years. He’s never wanted to end things, and is happy with them complicated, I’ve tried to end things numerous times but we have only ever lasted a maximum of 6 weeks before one of us gets in contact again, usually me, but then it’s always me that leaves. I think I’ll end it then miss him, it’s hard. I think we love eachother in some way, and would be together if life allowed us, but there’s 101 reasons why he can never be anything other than what we are, it’s not enough me… but he’s ok with it. I’m not sure what my question even is, I supoose I wanna ask what he thinks of me, everytime I leave, and return?
Complicated relationship?
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