I have a great boyfriend whom I love very much. He’s never given me a reason to suspect he’s disloyal, he’s perfect. He’s also into a lot of very artistic things, he’s a sent tuve soul, and goes to a lot of creative workshops because of this he has almost entirely female friends.
I’d never tell him about this or make him stop being friends with them, but I unconsciously view all his female friends and competition. It’s not like they’re particularly pretty or “better” than me. But they’re known him longer and he’s tall and attractive. I always feel I’ll be left behind or they’ll know him better and they’ll have some little romcom and relaxin there in love or having him even find them attractive at all (or them finding him attractive.)
I don’t even know what I’m afraid of but it pisses me off to no end, I hate it, and I think about it 24/7. it’s not damaging our relationship, I’m good at keeping things to myself but it makes me almost not like him sometimes or just hate myself and want to break down and cry. How can I get over this?
