I came across one of my MyTakes from my previous account, I was 20 when I wrote it and It’s a bit childish from this perspective but it’s very honest.
My Struggle Of The Fear of Intimacy (Written by 20 yo LFF)
I do still have fear of love, but not so much.
1.5 year after writing that MyTake , I had a 3.5 year relationship. That was very fulfilling and beautiful for me.
I feel proud of my younger self for overcoming that fear and I hope, I’ll learn how to oppose them these days too.
Sometimes, I think I set too high standards for my future partners, not because I am shallow, but because I subconsciously try my hardest to avoid falling in love again.
I feel like, even though I was 20 at the time of writing that, I expressed my problem more-so clearly.
But I just wonder that maybe, while I am no longer scared to fall in love, still setting my standards as high as I set them,
Might be a subconscious sign of me still being afraid, and locking my way to falling in love the best I can.