B4anyone starts giving me grief, I won’t be taking on board. You are not not me, you haven’t lived my life; and unless you have been in my exact position you have no idea, the same as you have no idea what it’s like to walk on water etc. I am currently in a 15 year marriage; with children. i have been having an emotional affair for 7 years, it started completely platonic, he was a colleague at work. We had placements together for many years so was forced to work very closely together. The feelings started very very slowly, he’s married with children also. At the beginning we never thought we would be where we are now. It was just an unsteep slope down into where we were heading that we almost didn’t realise until we hit the bottom. For the past year things have been sexual, I completely am in love with him, my heart longs for him, my body longs for him, I’m unsure if he feels as deep as I do but I know he cares about me a lot. We don’t have the rship where we talk about leaving our famlies. We are 100% committed to them. I’m at a point now where it hurts to not be with him, and I know the longer it goes on the stronger it will be. I’m going to cut all contact, but how have people got over an affair to whom they are completely in love with. I love my partner, but he doesn’t make me feel the way my ap does. I know most of what we have is a fantasy, which is why we both won’t leave but it hurts. I have been so far 2 weeks with no contact and I can’t sleep, I can’t eat, I can’t concentrate becus he’s on my mind 24/7, I feel sick, I feel I’ll,& if I didn’t have children I think o would end it all. It hurts to love someone so much but to know that it’s never to be,2 know it was wrong from the start. How can something feel so right, but be so wrong. Has anyone been through anything similar, how did you cope?4 the record I won’t be telling my husband,2 think relationships are perfect is ridiculous, i know him,& I know he knows,& I know he’s avoiding making it known he knows
I’m having an affair?
