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Is it love, or is it an obsession, how do I know the difference?

Anonymous

I’ve always had feelings for this guy; I’ve known him over 20 years. The past year we exchanged mutual feelings, and started a sexual relationship. It was necessarily a real relationship, it was more just friends with benefits, but close friends. Since the sex, I have fallen completely in love. I have told him I love him, and he won’t say he doesn’t love me, but he doesn’t say he does either. He doesn’t want a relationship, but says he happy to continue us having sex. he's not the type to open up about feelings anyway, but I don’t believe he feels anything near how I feel.

I know what’s best for me is to leave the situation, but I’ve tired that over and over and I always give in and go out. I have a genuine feelings of loss without him, I feel as if I grieve his presence, and have withdrawal symptoms. Without him I feel sick, I can’t sleep, I can’t concentrate, I don’t find enjoyment in anything, and I feel completely sad.

Even now, when we are on good terms etc, he’s all k think of. He’s the first person I think of when I wake and the last as I’m drifting off, I even dream on him. I message him constantly, I ask to see him constantly, I get annoyed angry and upset if he’s doesn’t see me. I can’t focus on anything else or anyone else as I just want him. I masturabte over him daily, and find no one else sexually attractive. My day is not a good day unless I’ve spoken to him. Everytime we touch, it’s like electric pulsing through my body. I will do anything, and everything for him, and to think of a life without him one day scares me, but k know he’ll never feel the same.

Is it love, or is it an obsession, how do I know the difference?
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