Why doesn't my war with myself end?

[Anonymous]

No matter what I do, it doesn't work. My battle with myself never ends. I have been living in pain for years. Because I grew up without a mother and love, my relatives excluded me and constantly humiliated me. I can't help but compare myself to other girls, I don't find myself smart, beautiful and successful like them. There was no one who loved or wanted me, I could never experience love in my life. I hate it when others look at me with pity under the name of kindness. Men treat me rudely and badly. I am ashamed of myself, my life and what I have experienced.

[Miristheiss]

Tons of people grow up with out a mom. They grow up without a dad. They are raised by a grandparent. Many in foster care.

Not everyone has a mom/dad, ideal childhood.

We all make it to adulthood with different experiences. Regardless, you have to do the best with what you have. That is the first 18 years. The next 60 are totally, 100% UP TO YOU.

Your life is just starting. Don't be a fool by living it looking backwards. That is over and done. None of it was your fault. Make your future whatever you want.

[DannyUk2017]

Is just a stage of life that all of us has passed at one point , maybe is time for a change, its a start to another You! Its a start for a change, so change a few things in life, and even change the people around you, and slowly you'll see the difference.

[Asker]

And the man whose life was happy and never suffered spoke 👏👏👏

[DannyUk2017]

Is that sarcasm? 🤔

[DannyUk2017]

I'm not happy inside either, but that doesn't mean i Can't keep trying. And i answered just to lift the mood even if is for a little time, but if you think something else... i'm sorry for you!

[Asker]

whatever you want to understand

[DannyUk2017]

And if you want to know i Grew up since i was 3 and half in Orphanage, untill 19 without parents, but that didn't brought me down! Contrarly made me stronger!

[DannyUk2017]

Not whatever i want to understand, you've gone rogue on me and i can't make out why, you said :And the man whose life was happy and never suffered spoke 👏👏👏

[DannyUk2017]

Doesn't make sense 🤷‍♂️

[Anonymous]

Is being sarcastic to every commenter going to help you whatsoever? Or are you just trying to put your horrid attitude on display? You wake up every morning and make the choice to be miserable rather than help yourself, and that’s made evident by how you shoot down each suggestion. Sounds like you’ve become very comfortable with feeling bad and don’t really want to get yourself out of that hole.

[Asker]

You can never, ever understand the pain I feel because you grew up in a wonderful family and got what you wanted your whole life. You are a popular girl, maybe your hair is always well-groomed and your nails are always polished. And I'm sure you, like other girls, love shoes, makeup and luxury bags.

[Opinion Owner]

What the hell is wrong with you? Why would you sit here and literally create whole life backgrounds for people you don’t even know, that other commenter included? You have absolutely no idea how any of us grew up or what we have endured up to our current age, and for you to assume all of us have lived beautiful, flowery lives is just laughable. I know it’s hard to think outside of your own trials and tribulations but fuck the least you can do is ASK. Not assume.

[boggboss]

Sounds like u need therapy and no u are wrong therapy can work if u find the right person and also want it to work

[Asker]

So is therapy going to tell me that I'm superior to the girls I compare myself to?🤔

[boggboss]

No it will help u to change how u think and understand compering yourself is pointless and that small things like that are why u are unhappy it will help u to stop self sabotaging your life

[Asker]

I'm sure she will tell, I'm sure🙄

[boggboss]

Again the issue is u don't want the help u don't want to fix the damage u have to your mental so no nothing will change because u are unwilling for it to change

[Asker]

I want to get better, but when I go to the therapist she will look at me with pity and secretly humiliate me.

[boggboss]

U have already decided therapy won't work so it won't if u want to fix yourself u need to open yourself to getting that help and stop sabotaging your life

[Anonymous]

Maybe you need to be talking to a therapist.

[Asker]

Therapy never, ever works.

[Luckycharms12]

I think you need so help

[Asker]

Yes I need help But all the help I have received so far has not worked.

[Luckycharms12]

It will takes a lot of time and effort and putting it into practice but it will pay off and remember it's for yourself you are doing it

[Asker]

So, when I do this, will I get the value I deserve?

[Luckycharms12]

You will learn lesson skills learn what you need in your life and don't need.

[Asker]

What do you mean by course skills?

[Luckycharms12]

Skills in life like what you value what you need. who to cut off if they are bringing you down. Who to include that is good for you