Why am I so ugly that I can't even look at myself in the mirror without crying?

[Helloimdepressed]

I've always has self esteem issues. Ever since I can remember. I've always been bullied for being the ugly kid. My friends think I'm stunning but that's what friends are for really. Telling you your beautiful etc. All throughout high school I got bullied so bad. I got food chucked at me. My friends would get it too because they was with me. We always just used to eat sat in the corridors of school hiding from everyone. It sucked. I'm now at college and I every single girl i see is so fucking pretty. They all have boyfriends and a life I've always longed to live. And me? Well I'm just a ugly and fat potato. Walking around trying to be someone I'm not. I'm single which says it all really. Everyone of my friends are in relationships. I'm not. It's now got to the point that I can't even look at myself in a mirror without crying at my ugly face. But I have to look in the mirror to put makeup on. It doesn't even make a difference personally. I've seen people over my self harming and I've happily stopped but the urges say otherwise. Sometimes I even agree with the bullied when I think back to what they have said to me. And I'm like "I totally fucking agree with you" and I just... I just really hate myself and I wish I was a pretty skinny girl that gets boyfriends. I can't even wear a cute denium jacket without thinking I look fat from the behind of me. It's oversized and baggy and cute and from the front of me it looks like I'm skinny but the back it literally looks like I'm so fat and yeah. I just wasted a bunch of money becuase the whole back of me looks fat. I fucking hate my life and I hate fucking society.

[Anonymous]

No one deserves to be bullied.

You really need to build your self confidence and learn to love yourself. You can't expect others to love you, if you don't love yourself.

Another thing, you're drowning in self pity, you need to pull your big girl panties on and get it together, be happy! Life has so much to offer and there's so many things to be thankful for. I don't know your current situation, but I can tell you there's always someone going through something worse.

Stop being jealous of those other girls, if you want what they have, then put yourself out there. It takes baby steps and even though it can be uncomfortable, it's well worth it. Its like sticking your toe in hot water, you pull it out quickly, dip it back in repeatedly, till you can put your whole foot in the hot water.

If you think your fat, then work out and eat healthy and get the body you desire. Life takes hard work and you're the only person who can give it to yourself.

I don't mean to lecture, but I've been where you are and I needed a slap in the face, thankfully I got one, and I've been more confident in life and a hell of a lot happier.

People are always there for you and you should never hate your life. Be happy you have a life!

[Darkbrunette96]

I agree it sounds like you have Body Dysmorphic disorder. I bet you are a beautiful, person not trying to sound cliche' or anything. We all have insecurities people tell me I am beautiful after awhile I do, believe it. I look really similar to Katy Perry even though I don't wear a lot of makeup. The only difference is that my eyes are a steele blue with a bit of green sometimes look turquoise. Don't be hard on your self life is too short to be depressed and unhappy. I could be that way at least you are not Bipolar like me. I was bullied for being in a special math class I am in Geomtry essentials even though I signed up as 96' baby but I'm really a 99' baby. :)))

[Helloimdepressed]

Thank you! This actually motivated me

[SuccessfulOVO]

You need to relax and learn how to not be so hard on yourself. I think you're pretty from your profile picture. Don't listen to what people say because no matter what you do, society will never be happy. I suggest just making yourself look pretty TO YOU, as long as you think you look pretty don't worry about what other people think. Don't copy or compare yourself to other girls. Be your unique self.

[Helloimdepressed]

Thank you so much!

[SuccessfulOVO]

No problem.

[Hollywood-Glam]

First of all, you need to see a good psychologist who will really help you with your insecurity. Beauty is not important, it's not something that should bring you down. We all have different opinions about beauty, if some don't find you pretty, others will.
Ignore the bullies, and surround yourself with good people.

[hotstuffSRD]

Whoa !
Calm down Ok?
Just chill
Take a deep breath
Good 😊
See life sucks like as hell though I don't have problem with girls but some other things in my life sucks
Still I'm always awesome
You think you're ugly?
Ok but why?
Upload a pic here then you'll know cause people here gives good advice 😊
Chocolate 🍫?

[Helloimdepressed]

I don't feel like I want to upload a picture. Sorry. Just my personal feelings. And no thank you for the chocolate. I'm not really the chocolate type. 🙂

[hotstuffSRD]

Hmmm ok then 😐
Ice cream 🍨?
by the way if it's you in the profile pic then you're attractive tbh 🙈

[Helloimdepressed]

I can't eat ice cream. Filters to miraculous things.

[hotstuffSRD]

Oh ok then I should leave...
by the way filters can't make someone actually attractive 👍

[Helloimdepressed]

Trust me. Filters with a bunch of more filters and effects with a bit of Photoshop. It does plenty! Thank you for the advice! It was really sweet of you (:

[hotstuffSRD]

The problem is that you're unsecure about your looks 😶
My pleasure 👍

[OrangeBoy]

I'm confused. Are you the pretty girl in your GaG avatar?
It shocks me how you think you are ugly.

You are amazing young girl.
You just don't have a boyfriend because maybe people don't know how to deal with you, they feel hopeless about trying to make you happy.

Is that your photo? So cute girl.

[Helloimdepressed]

Haha thank you. Nice to know me hiding behind a pillow is kinda cute.
Amazing. I don't know..

[OrangeBoy]

I saw your face! You changed your pic now...

[Helloimdepressed]

Oh.. Lol

[OrangeBoy]

: / look...
It's not about the looks. Looks do call guys... but it's the personality that hooks us. The physical image is essentialy the bait.

I understand that, after you feel so much suffering (and i don't doubt about it), it's time for you to move on, to the cool adult version of yourself.

You already have a pretty face (guys love that)
Now, the body thing can be worked on. Exercice and good heathing habits.
If you start doing them now, in 2 years you will be one of the sexyest women from your area, also, better heatlh, relaxed, and way more confident.

Your hidden, friendly and adventurous personality is hidden somewere near you, afraid of exposure. You need to grab it ok? Never lose it. Get a little more confidence and slowly she will get out.

You can talk to me anytime.

[Enaya]

1. Being pretty is not the most important.
2. Being in a relationship is overrated.
3. You are in college, use this opportunity to get ahead to a level everyone will wish they were at, then you will gain confidence
4. Then you will attract as you will be happy in your own skin

[BruceTrails]

I feel you, I had this image of myself about a year ago. Got bullied as well, people said I'm ugly I'm also single and when I looked in the mirror I saw ugliness. I quit college because of this and went to a phycologists for 8 months. This helped me a lot and I accepted more who I was. I'm still really insecure and shy tho but I'm making progress.

[Helloimdepressed]

Nice to know that someone understands and congratulations! I'm really happy for you! I hope you continue on your progress! You've achieved more than I could've. 👍🏻💕

[BruceTrails]

Thx! You're still young and I hope you will get over this by time. Also I'm meditating for a few months now and its also helping me to clear most of the negativity that's in my mind.

[Helloimdepressed]

Sounds like an option

[BruceTrails]

Ye you can always try it.

[serious]

Well looks are in the genetics by and large, but to some extent looks can be fixed, if you know what I mean. However you don't deserve to get bullied, not at all. It's sad that this has happened to you. I hope you are okay.

[FakeName123]

You clearly have an distorted self-image and see yourself as uglier than you are.

You should learn to accept and love yourself the way you are and potentially consider going to counselling.

[Helloimdepressed]

I'm scared of counciling

[FakeName123]

What scares you about it?

[Helloimdepressed]

Judging. Thinking that I'm
Making every thing sound worse than it is. And thinking I'm pathetic over self image and weight. I personally think councillers are for people with bigger problems then me. I'm not Suicidle. I don't have any addictions. Which means a don't really need to see someone over something that's not big of a problem. There's honestly nothing they can do.

[FakeName123]

While that is noble of you, that isn't the point. Counsellors are helping because they want to help people no matter what their issues are.

There are issues which might seem easy and simple for some, but could be the most difficult thing for others and vice versa. Much rather I would assume you are also scared of digging deeper into yourself and your issues in fear of what lies deep inside of you.

[Helloimdepressed]

I agree with you! I know the things deep inside of me are a bigger problem that are already happening rn in my life and I'm afraid to face them.

[FakeName123]

And it is only natural to be afraid of that - but what's the alternative? You can't run away your entire life and the earlier you face those, the earlier you can move forward with your life. Else it will always feel like you are walking through life with a heavy baggage on your shoulders.

[Helloimdepressed]

Very true and wise

[FakeName123]

You have to ask yourself - do you want your entire life now and in the future be controlled by your fears? Or do you want to learn to overcome and become stronger than them and move forward?

Because in life there are only two directions, two kinds of people. Those who move forward and grow upon their hardships and those who don't. Because in the end everyone has their own fair share of hardships and difficulties in life, but it is up to each individual if they overcome and grow on those or if they become the victim of the circumstances.

[Helloimdepressed]

Thank you so much!

[FakeName123]

You are welcome. If you have any further questions, feel free to ask or write me in private. While I am no expert, I do have a few years experience of volunteer counselling.

[Helloimdepressed]

Thank you so much! I'll think about it

[DarkHumorRUs]

I think I'm not that good looking but I was never bullied or tormented or suicidal. So what am I doing right? Probably just being myself and having fun.

[Helloimdepressed]

I think I'll take that on bored

[Helloimdepressed]

Board lol

[Bur7han]

Only Two words after looking at your half face in gag avatar "Hot n Sexy"

[Helloimdepressed]

"Why you always lyin' "

[Bur7han]

I never lie!!! if i see anything ugly i call it ugly and if it's not ugly i will obviously call it Beautiful... "I am not afraid. ;)"

[Kiminowa]

Love yourself and remember someone out there loves you abs some out there finds you attractive. People call Beyonce ugly #fuckthehaters

[Anonymous]

Seriously, you need mental health help. You are deep into depression and body dysmorphia.

[Anonymous]

You should go see a shrink. Attention seeking women...

[Anonymous]

But you have a selfie in your profile picture? How did you take that pic without crying?

[Helloimdepressed]

The filters on my camera make me look better than I actually look. So filters make me feel like I am pretty. If I could walk around with a filter on my face I would.

[orphan]

don't put on makeup, and go to the gym.

[Helloimdepressed]

Boy... Not like I don't go to the gym. I'm size 2

[orphan]

so how do you look fat from the back?

[orphan]

so you're not a fat potato either?

doesn't sound like you go to the gym if you're moping around depressed.. at least not often.

[Helloimdepressed]

Ever heard of the condition where girls eat and then vomit it up. Yeah I do that. Thanks for the cofidence boost...

[orphan]

well you didn't mention that.

is the corner of your closet packed w/ vomit filled mason jars?

[orphan]

imagine if your future boyfriend stumbled upon those... might wanna stop now --------

[Helloimdepressed]

Well aren't you just a bundle of joy...

[Helloimdepressed]

Absolute imbecile. People like you are the reason I am like this. Why don't you take your simple minded words with you and fuck off

[orphan]

maybe if you were honest up front people wouldn't treat you like this.

you said you were fat. i suggested teh gym. you said you're a size 2 in response. i suggestion go more often, cuz a routine boosts self esteem... you countered w/ bulimia.

happy new year.

[Helloimdepressed]

I have bulimia... I know I have it. I know I need to gain weight. I was size 12 two weeks ago...

[orphan]

what?

12 to 2 in two weeks? that's dropping weight like you're on naked and afraid.

[Helloimdepressed]

Ikr...

[orphan]

before and after pics?

[Helloimdepressed]

How about no. Are you in to highly anorexic girls or some shit. If your from the USA a size 12 is a US 8 okay. So google that and then a size 2 girl. You'll see the difference

[Helloimdepressed]

I went from being a normal healthy weight. So highly ill. Because of dicks that framed me for being normal in the Weight area. And now... I get called ill or too skinny. Like?

[orphan]

prove it.

[Helloimdepressed]

I don't have to prove jack shit to you? You have no importance to me?

[orphan]

no but looks like you need to prove it to yourself.

let's see a side by side.

[blondfrog]

Wow and I thought I had low selfesteem

[Helloimdepressed]

Oh...

[Anonymous]

Ugly? LOL.

I think you're quite pretty

[Helloimdepressed]

You don't even know me (:

[Opinion Owner]

Personality wise, I'm sure you're ugly, just like any other woman

[Anonymous]

Go see a phycoligest

[Helloimdepressed]

They don't listen. My previous one just said I have self esteem issues that I needed to focus on and that was the end of that

[Opinion Owner]

They didn't give you drugs?

[Helloimdepressed]

Said I didn't need any. They can't give you drugs for self esteem

[Opinion Owner]

What if a flew down we walked around the college for a few days I'll take you out on a few dates then we can jumped on your bed and make noises so people think you scored

[Helloimdepressed]

I'm good thanks. I'm not that desperate. People don't care if I scored. They just care about calling me names to make them selfs feel good.

[Opinion Owner]

What if I had the shit better out of every single on of those bullies

[Helloimdepressed]

Yeah. It isn't a movie

[Opinion Owner]

I'm serious I can make it happen

[Helloimdepressed]

Thanks for the offer