Okay, let me preface this with the fact that this boy (lets call him 'Josh') is absolutely one of my best friends. He came out of a bat relationship with a nutjob around three months ago.
So, 'Josh' and I went to a convention over the weekend, and while I stayed with my female best friend 'Jess' on Friday night, my parents agreed to allow me to stay with 'Josh' and his parents and cousin on Saturday, so I could spend the whole weekend in Boston. We had loads of fun, and it was a great time. We went back to the hotel that night (as a side note, there were two beds) and his parents took one bed, while his cousin took the chair. They offered me the bed, and insisted, so 'Josh' was planning on taking the floor. After showers and whatnot, we were laying on the bed and watching YouTube on each others phones. We ended up basically cuddling, but because I like him a lot, I didn't really bring it up. Eventually it got closer, I guess? I ended up wrapped up in his arms, with my head on his chest. I don't know if he thought I was asleep, but he kissed me on the head, two or three times, and he touched my knee, acting like he was checking if it was okay. I fell asleep like that, and when I woke up, he still hadn't moved. The day after, we were joking about it a little bit, over text, and he mentioned it being 'very pale' which is a reference to a very platonic relationship. I felt like it was very romantic, and I have never done that with any friends before. I hinted that it wasn't 100% platonic and he seemed surprised. I don't know if it was platonic or romantic or what. And I really don't know what to do. I feel incredibly happy around him, and he is the only person who makes me feel safe, so risking our friendship isn't really an option for me. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
So, 'Josh' and I went to a convention over the weekend, and while I stayed with my female best friend 'Jess' on Friday night, my parents agreed to allow me to stay with 'Josh' and his parents and cousin on Saturday, so I could spend the whole weekend in Boston. We had loads of fun, and it was a great time. We went back to the hotel that night (as a side note, there were two beds) and his parents took one bed, while his cousin took the chair. They offered me the bed, and insisted, so 'Josh' was planning on taking the floor. After showers and whatnot, we were laying on the bed and watching YouTube on each others phones. We ended up basically cuddling, but because I like him a lot, I didn't really bring it up. Eventually it got closer, I guess? I ended up wrapped up in his arms, with my head on his chest. I don't know if he thought I was asleep, but he kissed me on the head, two or three times, and he touched my knee, acting like he was checking if it was okay. I fell asleep like that, and when I woke up, he still hadn't moved. The day after, we were joking about it a little bit, over text, and he mentioned it being 'very pale' which is a reference to a very platonic relationship. I felt like it was very romantic, and I have never done that with any friends before. I hinted that it wasn't 100% platonic and he seemed surprised. I don't know if it was platonic or romantic or what. And I really don't know what to do. I feel incredibly happy around him, and he is the only person who makes me feel safe, so risking our friendship isn't really an option for me. Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
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I'm a hight school junior (year 11) and have known 'Josh' since we both moved to our current school as freshmen.
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