My father and mother came from two different families. My mom came from a moderately right wing, catholic and somewhat wealthy bourgeois family. My father and his brothers are idealist anticlerical socialists. I grew up with my family’s mother with very little contact to my fathers family (my parents are together) and even if I have a certain sensibility towards social causes, I consider myself center/right wing and moderately religious. It happens that I always fall for guys who are right wing conservatives and fairly religious. It causes me a lot of anxiety to think of introducing them to my father and vice versa. I think he would be disappointed and they wouldn’t like him and as I’m scared they will dump me as soon as they know my fathers family is left wing I never introduced them to the family. Also I dream of a nice normal church marriage but it makes me extremely anxious to imagine having to ask my father to walk me down the aisle. I feel that this problem with my family is preventing me from having a happy love life.
I am only attracted to men who would not be liked by my family and would not like my family?
