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I am only attracted to men who would not be liked by my family and would not like my family?

My father and mother came from two different families. My mom came from a moderately right wing, catholic and somewhat wealthy bourgeois family. My father and his brothers are idealist anticlerical socialists. I grew up with my family’s mother with very little contact to my fathers family (my parents are together) and even if I have a certain sensibility towards social causes, I consider myself center/right wing and moderately religious. It happens that I always fall for guys who are right wing conservatives and fairly religious. It causes me a lot of anxiety to think of introducing them to my father and vice versa. I think he would be disappointed and they wouldn’t like him and as I’m scared they will dump me as soon as they know my fathers family is left wing I never introduced them to the family. Also I dream of a nice normal church marriage but it makes me extremely anxious to imagine having to ask my father to walk me down the aisle. I feel that this problem with my family is preventing me from having a happy love life.
I am only attracted to men who would not be liked by my family and would not like my family?
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