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How should I approach this situation?

So there is this guy that I’ve been crushing on for years on and off. I don’t know if it was bad timing but I had so much anxiety to even talk or be near him that I pushed him away. I just kind of avoided him and the only thing we did was look at each other from afar. When he got a girlfriend it hurt me so bad that I could have been his girl but I was playing. I was to apologize for being an ass but my anxiety about him is 📈. I have social anxiety and certain people make it worse, so I kind of just avoid them. Whenever he breaks up with a girl he starts looking at me again and when I look back he turns away. I never have a chance to even talk because after service he goes outside quickly and is with his parents. For months now my feelings are getting stronger and I don’t have his number anymore but I remember the area code. I keep seeing his area code everywhere and in random orders. Is it God giving me a sign or is it just me thinking about him all day long? Is it wrong for me to pray to God and say that whoever he is dating is not the right person for him and that they should end the relationship? I have a mutual friend and he told me that they broke up recently. They broke up like 4 times.
How should I approach this situation?
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