Mikhail Gorbachev recently just died. Other people have had recent deaths too. The irony in that happening to you is, it makes you appreciate life more.
I can 100% honestly say that, the people I cared for the most have already died in my life; my ex fiancée and my grandmother (both around the same general time; 2010 and 2012). So in a way, there's a twisted beauty to death. The REAL sad thing is, being in my current situation: I don't have a SINGLE person right now, who I would really give a flying f*ck about, if they died right now.
Sure, I have friends back home in the US, but they're as good as stuck in the past, anyway. I have a half sister, who I talk to sometimes, but were we never "close" close. And my mother is the one who won't die, no matter what. My mother will be 92 and still around, having outlived my grandma.
So when I say "I don't have a single person right now who I would care about, if they died," I mean it. If my half sister or closest friend died, I'd go "That sucks; darn." So yeah, isn't that a worst situation now?
Who would you choose to go away forever, if you HAD to choose and the Grim Reaper threatens to kill them all if you didn't?