Hello, I am finding myself in a very confusing position and I am looking for outsider opinions to help myself gain perspective. I meet my husband right out of high school, he was the first guy I had ever dated (strict parents and all) and I fell head over heels. The first years were great and most days I do genuinely feel like I found my person but it is becoming harder and harder to stay in love with the man in front of me. A few years into our relationship before we were even married he came clean about lying to me that he was a virgin when he was taking my virginity, we worked through this though, and continued on with life. Then it became clear that while I was growing my career he was very content and his work ethic/drive to accomplish more in life was not something he was passionate about. I personally paid for him to get a few different specialty licenses and go through the schooling needed for those. Each time it only took a couple of weeks before he felt as though that path was not for him. When we go on dates I always seem to be the one paying, when money gets tight I am always the one having to figure it out. I cook, I clean, I make sure everything is taken care of but I feel like I get almost nothing in return. Birthday gifts? Nope. Christmas gifts? Nope. Date Nights planned for us? HA, never, I am lucky to get dinner with him checking his phone constantly. I fell in love with him because we bonded over trauma, he made me feel safe from the abuse I suffered growing up but I just don't know if it is enough anymore. Anytime I try to have a conversation it turns into an argument. We never have fun anymore and quite frankly he is terrible in bed, he has never once made me climax. I feel like I have given my whole self to someone who can't even give me a small piece of them. I just don't know what to do. I genuinely love him and have tried so damn hard for 8 years to see if he will change but when do I say enough? And how do I start over?
I don't know if I should walk away?
